Mysterious soul cavern

What I'm thinking of today... need advice

2008-04-16T00:43:13Z

I seem to write poetry... sometimes. I've noticed about myself that I can't just say 'okay, I shall write a poem at this very second' I wait sometimes and after a while it explodes on paper like a atomic bomb screaming out from my soul and grabbing the hearts of others...it's very interesting the way I approach things, some sort of oddity. Oh well maybe it's not too odd. I think that I'm going to try to write something later tonight.
So I need advice for anyone who's reading... How can I expess my anger (or should I express it at all) to someone special in my life who blew off plans with me for this saturday... 1. they forgot about them 2. they don't want to change the plans but thet feel as though they should because it's a friends birthday. I feel pety... I feel so low and selfish because I should be more understanding... but I can't help it that I'm upset about it... I even know that they don't want to change their plans but it just hurts me because I was so excited about the plans...I mean we've been planning this for a month. I reacted badly at first... but now I'm wondering if I should let it go and suck it up... or talk about my feelings. Help me
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Thank you for reading. Have a wonderful day :)

My thoughts lately :)

2008-04-14T18:23:41Z

To be the bigger person is always better than being the small one...but what exactly does it mean to be the bigger person...(i always seem to ask myself) I've been thinking that alot..sometimes dealing with peopel at schol is harder than it may seem to be. I came to the conclusion that being the bigger person isn't doing the opposite of what the smaller person wants you to do or trying to make your parents, teacher, friends happy or trying to stay out of trouble at all costs. I think that being the bigger person is simply doing what YOU think is right...finding out a way to keep negitivity out of YOUR OWN life and I do believe that that procedure is different for everyone. Like mine may be ignoing the conflict completely (which it's not) and yours may be fighting back and going at it head on while some one elses may be getting authority figures involved. Being the bigger person isn't nessisarly one thing, it can be may different things for many different people. The question is not what is the right thing to do but what is right for you.

thanks for reading have an amazing day <3

Why I added you..

2008-04-05T15:21:05Z

I added a bunch of people through searching in the dictionary. I added random people and you were just one of them :) So it wasn't because I'm some big creepy stocker..I just wanted friend... friends are nice :)
Have a spectacular day everyone :)
Sorry if you were concerned.

Today

2008-04-04T22:13:06Z

This was a day to behold. I mindlessly went to school and stummbled around like my zombie self. I cannot wait until school is over. I know that I have to get educated but I wish there was a better way to do it. It's not exactly the education... it's the people... our famous, most popular attire of rebel flags, cowboy boots and weird ugly , brown jackets (no offense to anyone who dresses that way, its just not my thing, I appologize) But students at my school are so rude and inmature sometimes it's really hard to put up with. I don't fit in with to many people, mainly based on my lack of fakeness, understanding of the arts, and my librel view on life. Go me. Yeah, school sucks.

SO lately I have been trying fairly hard to not talk badly about people. I'm doing a okay job. I've learned over time(after talking to people and not judging them) that we(as in everyone) have no idea what peoples lives are like and would probably feel terrible for talking about them. I have a lot of really cool friends who are judged and automatically outcasted, but are really awesome after you get to know them. I really want to be nicer to people...Just another thing on my list.

Yesteday I was at walmart and I had to pick up a birthday card for my mommaw. I walked in the card alise and there was a older man standing there and after while I began to look at different cards. The man randomly told me that he was looking for a card for his daugher... so I went and found them and pointed them out for him. Then he told me that he didn't have his glasses and couldn't see to read so I stood there and read all of them for him :) He was so nice...It brightened my day tohelp someone. It was a great connection.

Well if you've read this I hope you enjoyed :)
Have a great day!!